Jimmy Novak has given everything. His wife thought he was insane, he had a celestial being inside him for a year. Cas said he was roughly “the size of your Chrysler building” in his purest form, right? He crammed that into 5’11. Five feet and eleven inches, people. A holy being of incomprehensible power inside one human. To be still walking and talking and functioning as a normal human being is huge for Jimmy to be doing after being worn like one of Buffalo Bill’s shirts for a year. He remembers what Cas did while possessing him, he remembers the demons and the Winchesters and stuff — things his body did, just not what Cas thought. He remembers everything he did. He remembers seeing his daughter for the last time. He remembers Cas’ -his- last words to Claire before he left to speak with Dean.
"I am not your father."
He remembers Castiel the angel leaving his daughter in the cold with those last five words. I am not your father. And now he has Claire back. Those words weren’t his last. They were obviously very close and believe me when I say that if you’re close to a parent, it’s miserable if one has to leave for a while. I can’t imagine how destroyed Claire must have been after Jimmy left. She would’ve wondered what she did wrong, what happened to dad, where is he, where is daddy- and to assume him dead. And now he’s back, daddy’s home. And in destiny’s own little ironic way, that night he came back, Claire would have prayed and thanked the very angels who had taken him from her for Jimmy’s return.
Jimmy Novak loves his family. He was devout (past tense is key) and gave more than any normal human to keep them safe. He’s returned to them for one night -one night to reconcile with Amelia and Claire and even that is cut short. And when he’s faced with the possibility of death and his daughter being used by Castiel, he’s not afraid of dying. He’s afraid of his daughter having to go through what he did, of Claire to be ripped from her life to fight and get stabbed and anything else that would kill a normal human. He forces Cas to take him again, not to keep himself from dying, but to save his daughter from the beings she prays to every night. What’s different this time is he knows what he’s going into and still says yes.
I’m sorry for the long post, but I fucking adore Jimmy Novak.
So my driving teacher has three fingers on one hand and four on the other and he makes puns about it and it’s great. And today he was like “I went to the museum and found my ancestors’ look guys!” And showed us this…